12 weeks

The first trimester has just about come and gone already. Hard to believe there's only two more of them until the bean arrives. Surprisingly, not much has happened in the last two weeks. The allergic reaction came and went, and somehow my skin looks even better than it did before I got it! Weird.

How I look: I haven't put on any more weight at all. I definitely can't suck my stomach in to try to look skinny, but I think I've mostly maintained the weight I put on right away a month ago...which keeps me right on track according to the doctor. I'm just thick enough around my waist that if you know me and see me everyday then you would think 'hmm, looks like Jill's put on a few pounds'. I've graduated up to the next size jeans...my regular ones are just uncomfortable enough to make me stay away from them. And I try as hard as I can to suck in the belly when I'm around the family...I can't have the stomach give me away before I tell them!

How I feel: I'm feeling better now, and the morning sickness is down to practically just the mornings before I go to work. I eat and then it comes back up and then I'm good to go for the day. I do still look at certain foods and gag right away, but that's gotten much better too. That happened on Sunday, Easter. We had some of the family on their way over to hang out for the day and I decided to stir my crockpot of salsa cheese dip. As soon as I did it the smell and sight of it were enough to send me running for the bathroom. As soon as the 'issue' was handled the doorbell rings and in comes Tim and Kelly. That was close. We still haven't told anyone the news, so that would have been a dead giveaway...phew!

We won't be keeping it in much longer now...though it kind of has been fun keeping it to ourselves. Now that the first trimester is just about over, I feel much safer to tell people. Mom and Dad move up for good in two weeks so we'll be telling them the news then. Thank God they're getting up here then because I don't think I'll be able to keep the 'thickening' away from everyone much longer. It's been easy to hide the extra little weight gain around my waist and hips since it's been cold enough to wear sweaters and sweatshirts when family is around. We're just going to enjoy our last two weeks of no phone calls and questions and then the flood gates will open:)

10 weeks

The hits just keep on coming. This week is something new and interesting of course. Ever have those days where you realize you're all of a sudden out of like 5 or 6 different cosmetic/toiletries? I had one of those days, so I went to the store and got all new stuff, thought I'd try a couple new things in the mix of them all. Why not right? Bad choice apparently. Among the new shampoo, conditioner, body wash, make-up powder, face lotion, and fabric softener, something hates me. I bought all this stuff last Friday and used pretty much all of it that day and night. Come Saturday by the end of the day I feel this little patch of rough skin and bumps on my jawline. Hmm, that's strange. I go to bed and wake up Sunday to a full blown allergic reaction to something all over my face and neck....red patchy bumps all over the place that itch. No kidding, my entire face was covered. Not even my eyelids could escape it. Sweet. Now, let's figure out what the heck just happened because this is not cool. Which of the new things that I just bought could be causing this? I have no idea because I've never had a reaction to anything ever before. And I just used like 6 new things all in one day so it's not that easy to pick which one is being the jerk. Is it the fabric softener and the clothes it was on touch my face as I put them on? Is it the shampoo or conditioner since my hair touches my face and then sleeping helps it get all over it even more? Is it the make-up? Maybe the face lotion.

Not helping matters was telling my neighbor all about it and then having her say, "I've heard of some women breaking out in a rash and keeping it for the whole pregnancy." Awesome, but things could be much worse I remind myself.

Fast forward a week and it's now Friday. I still have the bumps though they are clearing slowly and I don't look like as much of a monter walking around. I think it was the face lotion, so that's not ever going to be used again. The little demon seed sure likes to remind me that I'm much more touchy with things than normal. Thanks hormones!

8 weeks

October 8th will be here before we know it! I can't believe 8 weeks have past already!

The past couple weeks were hard being sick. Somehow, I think I'm starting to crest the hill of this morning sickness thing. I still feel gaggy during the day but I'm starting to have somewhat of an appetite. I've now switched to a third different kind of medicine and that has seemed to help. Thanks to my pregnant neighbor's recommendation to switch to the medicine she is on, I'm doing better. At least now I'm not on the couch all day! This little thing in me has sure been letting me know he's there!

Today we had our first doctor's appointment. It was so exciting to know we were going to get to see a picture of the little bean for the first time! I had previously been in to have my blood work done, and the doctor said everything is fine with that. She got me up on the table and started my ultrasound. Let me just say, and I know all you moms will say the same thing, but that is the most amazing thing seeing this tiny little human the size of a butterbean on the screen. How is it even real?? You can see his head and his little tail and he's just hanging out in there. At 8 weeks we can't hear the heartbeat yet, but we'll get to hear that next time. We were perfectly content just seeing the little guy/girl. So as the nurse practitioner is starting the ultrasound, as we're sidetracked just looking at the screen, she got a little quiet. Then we see her looking closer at the screen. I notice she hasn't said anything so I ask what's wrong. She says, 'Well, you see this over here? And do you see this over here?'. Yes, Marilyn, I see both things...why Marilyn?? 'Well, I'm not sure but that just looks like a second little blip on the screen and I'm not sure what it is.' Marilyn, that's not funny. I thought Chris was about to have a heart attack as he gripped my arm. 'Let me just go get one of the doctors so they can have a look for me.' Yes, please do. So the doctor comes in and takes a look at the sreen looking all around and says yes, there's something else on screen but she's 'almost sure' that it's not two embryos. Almost sure...not positively sure. Chris and I looked at each other and I could just see him adding dollar signs in his head. So we're pretty sure there's just one in there. At least that's what we're going to believe looking at the picture printout that shows the just the one below on the one side of my uterus.


How I look: Well, I have gained 4 lbs at my first appointment. 4lbs. That's not what I wanted to hear. I figure it's from eating pretty much straight carbohydrates for 2 weeks straight. Hopefully now that I'm eating better foods I won't gain so fast! My clothes are definitely tighter than they normally are.

How I feel: Better. I think in the next couple weeks I'll be feeling much better. I'm starting to toss and turn at night, and I'm falling asleep by 9:00. I can't keep my eyes open much past that.

Let me just say here that I have the best husband in the world. He has done nothing but try to make sure I'm as comfortable as I can be when I'm at home. He's had to put up with no dinners when he gets home from work after a 12hr day at 7:30 (that good 'ol race team always keeps him late) just to try to figure out what to make me so I feel better. Or he gets home just to turn right around to go out to get something because I'll think of a food that I want to eat that's not at home. He's been wonderful!

6 weeks

I’m sick:(

So, yes, I’ve been warned about morning sickness. I’ve read all about it and have heard absolute HORROR stories. I thought, maybe I’ll be one of the lucky ones. I dont recall the sister-in-laws Kate, Kelly, or Amy complaining about getting sick so maybe it doesn’t hit everyone. And who knows if Mom was ever sick. I’ve never had the need to have to ask her and since we haven’t told anyone the news yet, I can’t exactly call up now to ask. But still, maybe I’ll be fine. Um, wrong!

Week 5 started this last Wednesday and I’ve been warned by my neighbor who is pregnant about 5 weeks ahead of me that it hits hard come 5 weeks. Well, darn it if she wasn’t right. This past Thursday and Friday I started to feel funny…funny in a nothing sounds good to eat with an overactive gag reflex way. The weekend came and I was out of commission on the couch. I’ve felt nauseous before, but not like this. Every minute of the day feels like you’re going to get sick. Absolutely nothing sounds good to eat, but I know I need to eat to help curb the nausea.

It’s Wednesday, just finished my 6th week and it’s been bad. I’ve been home from work since Monday feeling absolutely horrible. It’s so hard to eat when I don’t know what I want. When I think of food I want to vomit, but I know I need to come up with something to eat. I’ll decide on something, eat it quickly, and then a half hour later think that what I just ate is the most disgusting thing on earth. I seem to not be able to repeat foods since they aren’t good after I have them the first time. Meat, fruit, veggies, milk…don’t even think about it. It seems carbs have been my only friend this week. I’ve been trying to eat as soon as I open my eyes in the morning before sitting up. I can’t say that it helps throughout the day, but I definitely think it helps get over the first wave of nausea and vomiting first thing in the morning.

Dad called today and wants to do dinner with us tomorrow. That is the last thing I wanted to hear but we’ll make it work somehow! Maybe I can offer him some saltines and chicken noodle soup??

It's Positive!!!

It's positive!! Looks like there's going to be a little (or giant) Krugie joining our world in 8 months!

I took my first test January 30th after work and right away the little line showed up. I was all by myself at home and just stood there looking at the strip, staring. Staring. I thought, maybe it could be a false positive, so I ran up the street to Dollar General (that's right, Dollar General) to get more tests. I thought they can't be any less positive than the expensive ones so why not? I got back to the house and took another test...positive again. Ok, I'm just going to take a few more because it's hard to convince yourself that it's really real. So I took another the following morning, and another that night, and another the next day. Ok, so by now it's for real. I told Chris that Friday and he just stared at me and said 'Are you sure?'. Um, yep, believe me I'm sure. I showed him all the tests I took and he got excited!

How I look: Obviously, no physical changes are happening at this point other than knowing there's a little bean growing inside me all of a sudden. That's so hard to comprehend when you can't feel or see anything. And I haven't been to the doctor yet, so it's like it's just this made up thing that Chris and I talk about. Weird.

How I feel: I feel great other than I've noticed how much hungrier I've been. I am starving every couple hours and can't seem to keep enough food in my stomach. I didn't think I'd be able to notice anything this early but apparently I can! If I keep eating the way I am I'm going to be huge! Other than the food, I feel great. I'm not tired and I'm sleeping just fine. I have a feeling this will all change very soon...it's just a matter of time.

We decided that we are going to wait to tell the family, so by time you all read this I'll probably be just about done with my first trimester. Sorry for not telling sooner, but I just want to make sure the little bean sticks and I don't have a miscarriage. Also, I'm just not going to be ready for the phone calls!!

We are so excited for the next 8 months of planning, turning our office into a nursery, and shopping for all kinds of baby things. We already decided that we need to get in as many trips as possible before he comes since we won't be able to do that by ourselves anymore!